Most of you know I'm a carer this morning one of my patients died I have looked after him and his wife for over a year
We have a very close relationship and they are almost like grandparents to me
My family live no where nearby and i know I shouldn't have got this close to them but I have
Now @"&£ has passed away this morning and I am devastated I cannot stop thinking of him and I keep crying
When the son contacted me in broken tears I asked if I could see him mum I was told no because this is a family time this has hurt me deeply as we shared a lot over the time we spent together and I feel that as far as the son is concerned I'm good enough to clean his dad etc... But nothing else
I really fell in love with this couple and spent a lot if time outside of work with them too especially when the weather was bad :/ am I being selfish ?? I know I'm not family and this is just my job but I know I don't have any rights .... I font know I just feel slightly disguarded