Life has been bliss since stopping work on Monday. Its only been a few days but already my demeaner has changed. Whereas before I was walking around with a scowl and a bit of a chip on my shoulder, feeling the weight of all I needed to do and the tough schedule I had to endure. I now feel the day is whatever I want it to be. I have a monster essay to write at the moment so its not as though Im free of obligations, but now I look upon it as a challenge that needs to be met. Before I was looking at it as an after thought, another burden on a burdened life. Thats not how work at this level should be, it needs commitment and discipline and thats what its going to get from now on.
My life hasnt undergone some kind of miracle in the space of 3 days but there are definitely positive things afoot. Before I was going to bed extremely late and eating late because of my work schedule and having to force myself up in the mornings. Now Im able to do things how I want. Gradually Ive been going to bed earlier at night and actually getting up in the morning because its what I want to do. Im still using medicine to help me sleep, but last night slept successfully on half of what I was using before. I was asleep by 11:30pm and woke sleepily this morning at 7:30am. That probably sounds very trivial and not significant. But in my life thats amazing. I had breakfast and had a gander on here. Next I will do some exercise, have a bath and then get back on with my essay. Yesterday I ate 3 satisfying cooked meals. Again, it doesnt sound much but its progress. Doing these normal things is what I need.
Im unemployed and loving it!
