Quote Originally Posted by Gandalf View Post
I'm a smart bastard, but not as smart as I used to be. I am as full of self doubts and insecurities as anyone could be. You struggle to see yourself as smart with a mind that wants to bring you down.

I got great end of term evaluations, my 2nd best ever, but for weeks beforehand I was down on my performance. If I was smart I would have read the situation better and saw that despite crazy pressures and stress I was getting it done. I saw 32 doctors this semester. Got very depressed about it so was on atopilot sometimes.
yes conflicting emotions can even bring down the biggest genius. But miles then you have to feel the goal to look around you and see the plebeians with mediocre intelligences and tell yourself there is no way they're going to outdo me at their tortoise pace well I am high up in the clouds and then my emotions drag me down it just isn't right