Hey Batman. The first step of Alcoholics Anonymous is “ admitted we were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable” I’m not saying you are an alcoholic. Many view alcohol as a symptom of something other. Untreated or unmanaged anxiety, agoraphobia who the hell knows. I don’t know you from Adam but you seem like a good guy and if something is causing you problems it would be good to see it stopped.