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All I can say is you need to have defined goals and desires written down and remind yourself of them everyday.... Strip down to your drawers and take a front and rear shot put the date on it and tape it to your bathroom mirror as a reminder of your progress as well as motivation.. You need to search yourself for the proper motivation, Do you want to be healthier? Do you want to pump hotter chics? Do you want to look good at the beach? Whatever the hell your motivation is establish it..

the trick to proper portion size is the palm of your hand.. a piece of meat a baked potato and a serving of vegetables should all be the size of your palm or closed fist.. Lay off the sugar bars and sugar drinks and fatty snacks.. lean meats and complex carbs as well as vegetables are the way to go, 6 small meals a day and a gallon of water is textbook eating.

Do cardio 3 mornings a week on empty stomach for about a half hour to start and then pick a body part each day and do three sets of three exersice's and pyramid the reps.

A GREAT book I recommend is "Body For Life" by Bill Phillips I swear when you read this book you feel like he is talking directly to you a really good practical way to get in shape mind in body

Most importantly stay positive and keep pushing forward