I kinda know what you're going through, I have problems sleeping as well. Ever since my mom passed away I have been utterly paranoid when it comes to turning out the lights and going to sleep. I'm convinced something bad is going to happen while I sleep, or that I just won't wake up. It's got so bad that when I feel I am drifting off I almost equate it with dying and find myself forcing myself to wake up. It's very strange, I seem to fall asleep best by having it creep up on me these days.