Quote Originally Posted by Dizaster View Post
Thanks for the reply.. Yeah maybe I should do a name change one day.. I am very attached with it though.. (I get the irony of that also considering i'm studying ego)


What I wanted to do is post 2 sayings that I came up with myself.. It is closely entwined with what i'm reading in Eckhart Tolle's book. But I occassionaly like to reword things and lessons so they resonate better with me, and so whenever I read it, it can point me to that place/feeling whenver I wish..

This is probably going to sound pretty damn airy fairy so bare with me, but it is a really profound thing to me to have this realization/feeling, and if even one person shares that I would be happy.

" The stillness and unfathomable depth of space as you gaze up to it, is an exact mirror of the stillness, and unfathomable depth that is within you. Is you. And so you feel a recognition and affinity with it, where the connection is seamless and boundryless between your inner depth, and the depth of outer space. For that moment, you are one with space and everything. And you can feel it as real as happiness or sadness "

I have a second one too which is more of an observation I have just made now of where i'm at in this type of education/development.

" I am getting to a point where "space" and "stillness" are as tangible to me as a door or a wall. Where as before I did not perceive either, or spare any time or thought for them.... And it seems the more tangible space and stillness become to me, the more peace I feel, and the more I feel i'm touching who I really am and getting to know who I am.. The more I can "see" space and perceive it on the outside, the more I can feel and percieve it on the inside.. The more it continues to open up in me.. Where as before, and only on occassions, it may have only been the size of a pea inside me.. That inner stillness and space and depth now feels as though it is reaching my skin and almost fully filling my physical form... I guess the next step is to perceive "my" depth, stillness and space as going beyond my physical bounds. And eventually having no boundry, and feeling that "my" space is "at one" and connected seamlessly with everything else, and they are not seperate... "

I cannot remember, but it was either you or Andre who were writing out your favourite Zen quotes in another thread, and it was reading one of those that gave me my first glimpse of this.
It went something like :

" Give someone an empty bowl or doorway, and it is not the bowl or doorway that is of use, but the empty space inside them "

This was the first time i'd ever conciously felt space or stillness as a tangible thing that "exists". HUGE awakening for me..
Now that is a serious one. Not yet for the novice, but still good to ponder upon. The state of consciousness quoted in two paragraphs above is the state I get in during my meditation. But it took me years and years to reach that state. There is a higher state than that, though. They say that at the ultimate stage, you will be one with the world and, this is kinda scary, there will be no more distinction between yourself and the world. Zen is definitely a very worthwile endeavor to pursue. But don't keep your expectations to high. From experience, I can say that at first, there will be a feeling of euphoria, which later starts to wane and sometimes you get sort of dissillusioned. But if you keep at it, you will ride through a road of bumps, sometimes high and sometimes low. It's that highs that gets you going.