If you are looking for answers on a hidden board on a boxing forum......you are pretty much fucked mate.

The answers to life are pretty simple. Get a good book and some booze. Try to live somewhere with nice weather. Some people dont have lives worth living, only they don't realize until they are too beaten down and cowardly to do anything about it.
If you trust people you will be disappointed. Life is pretty shitty regardless, but if you dull your senses for a year or so......it may be bearable.