This probably killed my last bit of idealism about boxing. As a kid, my favourite fighters were Roy Jones Jr, Diego Corrales, Floyd Mayweather Jr & Shane Mosley. Shane was my favourite, I used to try & base my whole style around him. I was still only young when Roy tested positive, but it really bothered me, even if I told myself it might not be so bad, I couldn't really root for him again.

It was finding out Shane did it that killed most of my idealism. I've spent years telling myself he didn't know, but the harsh reality that has dawned on me particularly since researching more on the BALCO incident in the last year has basically told me that there is no way that he didn't know what was up. It's why I can understand how Pac-fans are reacting, because I know that feeling of finding out something about your favourite fighter, even if obviously Pac might not be guilty & just has a phobia about taking blood that only manifests itself 24 days before a fight.

But, yeah as I said in another post, even if I wasn't necessarily a Pacquiao fan, he had provided me with some memorable moments & the feeling I now have is they might have been worth fuck all. Aw well, I'll get over it.

I'll just do what I always do. Blame Bob Arum.