Some stuff I had to get off my chest.

[CFH]

Congrats on the house amat, sorry everything else is going so tough for you right now. I remember when my mom died I got a little bit of cash, which I've been using to pay for school. It was nice, I guess, but it didn't dull the pain or make me feel any better.

Yup, my Uncle died on New Years Eve and it's not just losing him, it's just the fact that everyone is sad now and at times angry. I would give it all back in a heartbeat just to go back to December 30th but that will never happen so I suppose it's time to move on. I also got another cashiers check for 15 thousand which I am just going to sit on, I don't even want it in my savings. It's for school, it's been so hard to do fucken homework especially for math but I've been coasting by, I'm only at a JC so the real money will be dished out at the 4 year especially if I go out of state.

Of course you would, so would I, but in the end once all the negative feelings subside a bit it'll be nice for you to look at your house, your education (or whatever else you do with the money) and be thankful that someone who you loved and who loved you was able to give you that sort of gift. I'm just about finished my undergrad and I never would have been able to do this without incurring massive debt without my mom's help and while, like you, I'd do anything to have her back it's still nice to know that she cared that much about me. I'm seriously worried that I'll tear up at the grad ceremony .

/gay

Anyways man, it's really cool that you have a house, paid for, at such a young age.