I. too, once lost a girl that I loved out of sheer stupidity.

I had known her since she was a child. Actually, she still was a child as I stalked her and kidnapped her.

I had lovingly and carefully fashioned a small bijou dungeon in my cabin in South Dakota, I had gone shopping and bought all the little things that make a difference - you know the little homely things like the Leatherface mask and I had even pushed the boat out and invested in a four-stroke chainsaw.

Everything was going really well, we were so happy together (I think she was happy as she moved her lips a lot and water came out of her eyes all the time. My mother, who was my first girlfriend told me that this means people are happy). Anyway, I began to take her for granted and the magic began to go out of our relationship after some years. I was so stupid that one day I forgot to padlock the door as I went out to my truck to the survivalist meeting.

I don't know what was going through my head at the time, as all the voices were shouting and having a bit of an argument, and I must have just forgot.

Anyway, she left me and I have no excuses but to say that it was down to my own stupidity.

So, I know what you mean, as I have been through this too. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, though ...

I have managed to move on now, helped by the fact that I blinded her so she can't really lead anyone back to me. It took me so long to get over it, but I have noticed another little girl recently and those feeling must mean that I have some closure and am ready to move on with my life right now.