I wish I had more guidance and advice. I lacked a father figure and some gentle prodding. If I could take the knowledge and brain I have now, I would have done it all very differently and better. My current brain is damaged and slightly frazzled, but through it all there is a little bit of wisdom. I would urge the younger me into the field of medicine or to become a vet. Anything except the humanities which are just an inhuman waste of time. You can read about that stuff as a hobby and for your own knowledge base when you are mature enough to process it. Learn a trade, a skill, something. It took me a long time to learn about the basics and that should have all been given to me as a youth. I was reading Camus but was as forward thinking as a camel.