Brock get your bum out to Japan and you will find more peace. Just the air and politeness for a start. You know it is the slog of the big city grinding you down and the insanity of the West. Get out to a quiet Japanese city, stay there for 3 years and things will improve for you. The despair will never leave, but a change of scenery can help.

I have a lot to say on this topic having been through a lot this last 6 months but I won't say anything personal anymore. Needless to say I relate to a lot of the things said. I might not be 54 but I got old young and life has not always gone as it could have.