I feel like I am done with life

[Gandalf]

Brock get your bum out to Japan and you will find more peace. Just the air and politeness for a start. You know it is the slog of the big city grinding you down and the insanity of the West. Get out to a quiet Japanese city, stay there for 3 years and things will improve for you. The despair will never leave, but a change of scenery can help.

I have a lot to say on this topic having been through a lot this last 6 months but I won't say anything personal anymore. Needless to say I relate to a lot of the things said. I might not be 54 but I got old young and life has not always gone as it could have.

Sounds good miles, nice and anti western, but where ever you go, there u are. A geographical escape would work for a time but then the dark shadows would return to his empty core

Life in any big city is unpleasant though. It is costly, noisy, takes time to commute, people are miserable and seemingly imported from all over the place. Go somewhere smaller, more peaceful, more homogeneous, with beautiful scenery and politeness. I think the last place I would want to be if I am feeling down about life is London. I know I couldn't afford to live there with any degree of comfort, I know rush hour is a horror story, I know it is a rat race. It's unpleasant.

The West has become deranged and though there is push back against it it must be a lonely place to be if you have any common sense. Who wants to be around all that crime, that violence, that rudeness. At least Japan is safe, serene, polite, has great public transportation. It can be expensive true, but on a teachers salary and with provided living quarters it is doable. New York on 14 bucks an hour is hard for anyone. Teaching is not like flipping burgers, it is a very demanding job and that plus the stress of a rude place like New York will wear any man down.

Brock isn't done with life. He needs a break and to recharge his batteries. 54 is a long way from being done, but a big city is not natural for a human being of any age. These are contemporary forced enclosures to keep it ticking over for the higher ups. Nothing more.