I feel like I am done with life

[Alpha]

I feel like I am done with life. 54 + years. I have done many many things and I have gone to many many places and I have suffered through many many trials and tribulations and hardships and I don't regret any of it because it was an incredibly mind-blowing learning experience all the way through from a very emotionally tough childhood filled with anxiety and fears and lack of self-esteem all the way through college and then about 18 years of struggling hard from one clerical job to another in New York City and in New Jersey and then finally reengineering myself in 2006 to become an ESL instructor and travel the world. Now I am back in the United States for a little over 3 years and the feeling of emptiness in the feeling of getting older and your body starts to have some aches and pains and you try hard to do Sprints and to do push-ups into work out and to watch what you eat and to drink plenty of water and to try to get good sleep but it just starts to get very tiresome and it just starts to get very depressing and it just starts to get very empty and Melancholy and you just start to feel very unmotivated about anything anymore and you start to really not care about anything anymore because it seems like the same old song and dance outside in the streets and in the news and in everyday life again and again and again and you drive past the cemeteries when you are on the bus or on the train and you see tens of thousands of tombs and Graves and grave sites and the wind is blowing in the gray sky above the cemeteries through the graveyards the grey wind and the Cool Grey sky in the brooding clouds of silver and white and you wonder where all the souls have gone and where we are going and how futile everything is here

@Gandalf @Beanz

Sorry to hear you're feeling this way mate. If you can talk with someone you trust and are comfortable with about how you're feeling. If I had one piece of advise to give it would be to start putting yourself 1st. Don't be a c-nt, but look after yourself first.

Plus everyone here, is here for ya. We all talk sh-t at times but are really one big dysfunctional family. Chin up boss.

[walrus]

I feel like I am done with life. 54 + years. I have done many many things and I have gone to many many places and I have suffered through many many trials and tribulations and hardships and I don't regret any of it because it was an incredibly mind-blowing learning experience all the way through from a very emotionally tough childhood filled with anxiety and fears and lack of self-esteem all the way through college and then about 18 years of struggling hard from one clerical job to another in New York City and in New Jersey and then finally reengineering myself in 2006 to become an ESL instructor and travel the world. Now I am back in the United States for a little over 3 years and the feeling of emptiness in the feeling of getting older and your body starts to have some aches and pains and you try hard to do Sprints and to do push-ups into work out and to watch what you eat and to drink plenty of water and to try to get good sleep but it just starts to get very tiresome and it just starts to get very depressing and it just starts to get very empty and Melancholy and you just start to feel very unmotivated about anything anymore and you start to really not care about anything anymore because it seems like the same old song and dance outside in the streets and in the news and in everyday life again and again and again and you drive past the cemeteries when you are on the bus or on the train and you see tens of thousands of tombs and Graves and grave sites and the wind is blowing in the gray sky above the cemeteries through the graveyards the grey wind and the Cool Grey sky in the brooding clouds of silver and white and you wonder where all the souls have gone and where we are going and how futile everything is here

@Gandalf @Beanz

Sorry to hear you're feeling this way mate. If you can talk with someone you trust and are comfortable with about how you're feeling. If I had one piece of advise to give it would be to start putting yourself 1st. Don't be a c-nt, but look after yourself first.

Plus everyone here, is here for ya. We all talk sh-t at times but are really one big dysfunctional family. Chin up boss.

don’t feed into his attention seeking nonsense he makes everyone around him miserable fuck him he deserves every iota of misery that crosses his spiteful, bigoted pea sized brain

[Alpha]

I feel like I am done with life. 54 + years. I have done many many things and I have gone to many many places and I have suffered through many many trials and tribulations and hardships and I don't regret any of it because it was an incredibly mind-blowing learning experience all the way through from a very emotionally tough childhood filled with anxiety and fears and lack of self-esteem all the way through college and then about 18 years of struggling hard from one clerical job to another in New York City and in New Jersey and then finally reengineering myself in 2006 to become an ESL instructor and travel the world. Now I am back in the United States for a little over 3 years and the feeling of emptiness in the feeling of getting older and your body starts to have some aches and pains and you try hard to do Sprints and to do push-ups into work out and to watch what you eat and to drink plenty of water and to try to get good sleep but it just starts to get very tiresome and it just starts to get very depressing and it just starts to get very empty and Melancholy and you just start to feel very unmotivated about anything anymore and you start to really not care about anything anymore because it seems like the same old song and dance outside in the streets and in the news and in everyday life again and again and again and you drive past the cemeteries when you are on the bus or on the train and you see tens of thousands of tombs and Graves and grave sites and the wind is blowing in the gray sky above the cemeteries through the graveyards the grey wind and the Cool Grey sky in the brooding clouds of silver and white and you wonder where all the souls have gone and where we are going and how futile everything is here

@Gandalf @Beanz

Sorry to hear you're feeling this way mate. If you can talk with someone you trust and are comfortable with about how you're feeling. If I had one piece of advise to give it would be to start putting yourself 1st. Don't be a c-nt, but look after yourself first.

Plus everyone here, is here for ya. We all talk sh-t at times but are really one big dysfunctional family. Chin up boss.

don’t feed into his attention seeking nonsense he makes everyone around him miserable fuck him he deserves every iota of misery that crosses his spiteful, bigoted pea sized brain

Cool mate, you had me in hysterics with about the bus convo's, but at the end of the day we are all just people. There's no need for me to be a d-ck if the man's hurting. If it's all a con, hey I didn't lose anything. If it's not, I haven't made it worse.

[brocktonblockbust]

Looks like you are the odd one out Walrus

[brocktonblockbust]

@Alpha thanks mate you're a good guy. You know ENNUI is a tough pill to swallow. every action you take when you put one foot in front of the other or when you move one hand to pick up an object or when you wake up you go to bed one more time just disappears and vanishes before your eyes like Dust in the Wind

it's an age-old obsession by every philosopher and poet there ever was and there ever will be and there is no answer to it but it seems to me that if we keep that in our minds then we will be more ready for that final moment when it comes

[Memphis]

Just to confirm, the beer thread is a good idea. I not sure about this 60 seconds limit though. Savour it, enjoy it, don't be a slave to the clock.

[Gandalf]

Just to confirm, the beer thread is a good idea. I not sure about this 60 seconds limit though. Savour it, enjoy it, be a slave to the cock.

Memphis, I think I just owned you again!

[Memphis]

Just to confirm, the beer thread is a good idea. I not sure about this 60 seconds limit though. Savour it, enjoy it, be a slave to the cock.

Memphis, I think I just owned you again!

I knew you'd expertly sniff out the cock