You do have your doubts and your mind goes to a thousand different places, but what worked for me was to take it on the chin, accept that this happened because of the possibility that my diet and lifestyle choices had led my body to break down. I was so busy talking to surgeons and traveling up and down the country, I had to live in the moment, but for sure I had my moments when I wondered 'Could there be anything more?', but then the practical side of me had to say 'That is not a way to handle a serious situation. I need to find the best surgeon and to change myself. This is a test of my character and my body and with good human help and by changing a few things, I might be okay'. No doubt, you have these odd moments when you wonder if anybody or thing out there is observing, but logic would suggest not. You have to get through it on your own and it's down to surgeons and your own will in the end. In some ways, and I know it sounds strange with my body riddled with scars, but I am glad I went through the experience. I think some people do not realize they are alive and do not respect their bodies or appreciate what they have or have even contemplated their death, but I am sure you know what I mean having been on the battlefield. I have asked my wife 'Do you think about your death?' and she really does not and I think most ordinary people probably don't, but people, and there are a lot of them, who have been through really tough things like we have, you really do live as though you are dead already.
With the Jesus thing I am cool with a lot of what he seems to have stood for including standing up to authorities, being against unfair taxes, corruption, occupation, and wanting redistributing of resources and also being willing to die for a cause. I think that is a fantastic and brave thing to do, but I know a lot of ordinary people would probably say it was a bit silly and he should have lived a quiet peasant life and not stirred anything up. The whole Bible Harry Potter thing just goes too far for me. I do not believe in an omnipresent God who is looking out for everyone. When a fighter thanks God I find that insulting to not only himself but the valor of his opponent. It has nothing to do with God. It gets silly that way.


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