Our Planet.

[Beanz]

Why do you have this need to pretend that I am something I am not in order to make yourself feel better?

I really don't get it. Bitterness, jealousy, spite?
It really is odd. I have like the majority of the electorate no interest in Benjamin. What does it matter to you what I cover or what I think about you?

You have absolutely no idea what I do day to day or what I have done and when I suggested showing or explaining to you in a pm last year so that you could finally shut up about it, you had no interest.

We get it you are a lecturer who works half days and wastes most of his life swanning around reading and boasting about not having kids and good old family values whilst being allergic to families and living alone.

Its 4pm for you and you are clearly bored.

Oh, and I am spiteful am I? You don't get it? You don't recall just now calling me a nobody? That wasn't very nice was it? Was that spoken in jest or politeness?

You don't say very nice things to people either do you? Nobodies are the kinds of people that scrounge, that refuse to raise their game, that refuse to take responsibility. Am I really that person? I would retort with why do you pretend that I am somebody I am not? Is it to make yourself feel better? I mean you have done it to many a person at this stage. And you really don't get it? You don't understand? Maybe that is part of the problem. You have dialogue issues, things get lost in translation, and it is the same language.

If you are going to call me things that I am not then I think I have a right defend myself against those things.

I think people have a pretty good idea about you and what you do as you have told us all enough over the years. It doesn't make a very fortunate, normal or happy portrait to be honest. You also covered up who you were for years too which is unfortunate as it led to many a war on here that needn't have happened. People got lost in the crossfire.

Benjamin would have made you look silly and it is a shame we didn't see it. I can picture the snarl right now.

You don't get it do you? You are a nobody. That is not spiteful you big fairy, that is the truth. You are not a performer you are a lecturer. Stop building your part princess. I don't think I am anybody special either but when I bring up something relevant like actual first hand real life experience of what to you is just some random abstract fantasy or online game, you take it upon yourself to pooh pooh it as though that will make your own 'opinion' carry more weight. You do the same with music, pretending that you have some kind of supreme and exquisite taste, when for the most part it is quite safe, predictable and pedestrian.

Nobody here has an opinion that is more important than anyone else's. What we do and experience in our everyday lives though, does actually count for something. That can make the difference between a more considered and educated opinion and one that is based merely on the observations of others, many of whom will have their own bias and agenda. You want to pretend that I am a scrounger when i have always worked because it feeds into this idea that somebody who doesn't work 9 to Lunchtime, like yourself, in the same role for years as an employee, is somehow flippant and lazy, irresponsible. The truth is I often work 10, 15 hour days and do something different everyday. That is not because I am playing at anything, it is the reality of being self employed.

You look at my social media presence and think that is somehow representative of what takes up most of my working life, when of course the opposite is true. I work for national organizations and individual and group clients for whom the work becomes theirs once it is handed over, and you don't see that. (Although i can point you toward Amnesty, The Arts Council, British National Youth Theatre, The newspapers and magazines i have written for, awards won for mentoring and for my installation work, films,photographs and written pieces for many, many others if you really think that will help disavow you of your nonsense notions).

Your idea that I am this angry unhappy snarly lazy person, refusing to raise their game is a ludicrous one. I have had to improve and add strings to my bow, qualifications, techniques, skills, etc year on year like everyone else, because it is an incredibly cut throat and competitive industry to try and scrape a living in , in 2019. I am sure you do more than just teach, but from what you tell us your life seems incredibly empty. Way more than anyone else on the forum. I know you have made the decision not to have kids and that is yours to make, but it means you seem to have had an awful lot of dead time with which you have not done very much. I could of course be completely wrong but i find it a bit odd when I am constantly accused of not achieving anything despite oversharing myself.

If we can't learn from each other then I see little point in even posting to be honest. I don't expect anyone to share my opinions but if we can't be frank about our own, without people refusing to post or saying 'I want special treatment' then it is all a bit stupid. The planet is fucked mate and in the context of that both of us are nobodies.