Well tits I think your underestimating my age. I don’t know if I’d call it an addiction. It’s just when I added up the time I spent on my phone I thought it was too much. It’s not like it was ruining my life but perhaps it was making me somewhat unpleasant. No social media, other than a couple forums, news, stocks and history. I’m not much of a gamer so that wasn’t much of a thing. Researching stocks I have to do but can’t obsess over it. I was talking to a friend of mine who did very well on a VIX fund when the market was tanking. I asked him if he could explain what he did. Not his money of course just his method, I’m familiar with the VIX I just never traded around it. So he was kind to show me what he did, guy is very smart and 100% a financial guy but I’m looking at it and I’m realizing to be successful you need to be in front of your computer the entire time you are in the fund. I can’t do that, six months ago maybe, today no. It doesn’t always ring true but quite often the more trades you make the worse you do. But anyway like I said that guy is a pro who is just nice enough to explain things to me I’m a bottom feeder compared to those guys. He actually gave me a tip one day. Gave me the ticker symbol told me to buy futures he had crunched numbers and found the options were extremely cheap but I looked at it, it was a penny stock, I don’t touch them too volatile and I have not educated myself on them. Anyway he was right it moved up 600%. He probably made more than my house is worth that one day. But I’m not one of them. I appreciate how normal the dude is, just like a real wealthy guy but you wouldn’t know it, probably because he is self made, grew up poor but figured something out.

So anyway yeah if I looked at it I could probably find aspects of addiction. I was reading all the news, believe it or not I read all the Trump hating stuff as I like to see if I can get the whole picture if I read all sides but things are just too twisted up all over. One night, at the old job I did a 3rd shift from someone. It was 12 hours. Since it was the overnight I spent 5 hours on my phone reading nothing other than eastern religions. So I think it was like information overload and you gotta be careful with sources online when you are trying to learn things. Plus I’d be here everyday arguing about the same stupid shit. On Veterans Day someone called me a crazy vet with ptsd and I noticed it kinda got to me in a way I shouldn’t have let it. In today’s day and age vets expect to get insulted, but that particular day was Veterans Day and I usually put time aside to think about a number of people I know who aren’t around day. Some don’t have graves here, and it set me off a bit. You could say it to me 300 times in a row right now and it would have no impact. That day it did and I know it wasn’t the person who said it, that’s just what he does, it was me and the way I let it get to me.

I just needed to evolve In thought a bit and you can’t do that when you are doing the same shit. It’s all good though I have no ill will towards anyone. Life can be tough. I also don’t want to make a blanket condemnation. I know the hours a day I was on tech was a small footprint compared to others. If that’s how people chose to live so be it. I could just see myself becoming too closed minded despite seeking information. I asked my wife to take over the stocks for a few months and make the few trades we do. I created a bit of a monster as she made a couple moves to me that involved too much risk but they worked out. I gotta watch her as I did a quick look and kind find where she put the money from a trade I timed almost perfectly which is very hard to do and you only know that after the fact. Shit sorry I’m babbling about tangental shit I guess I’m tired.