Thanks for caring, landmine. I'm being serious. No sarcasm intended.

My fear of everything outisde my front door is very real. I've had serious anxiety issues since early childhood. Several factors involved in creating the problem. I can list them if I must...

It was so bad in elementary school that the teachers told my mother I was learning disabled. I would just stare straight ahead because I was too shy to even look at anybody let alone speak outloud. I remember pissing myself because I was too scared to raise my hand and ask to go to the bathroom. Eventually, everyone figured out what my parents already knew... I was smarter than most. Still, am.

I learned to reach out to others in middle school and made some close friends. Those few friends carried over to highschool and are still my best friends to this day. Since highschool I have only gained two new friends. I come from a large family so cousins and uncles made up for the friends I lacked.

I never feel safe in public. I feel like I will be at the wrong place at the wrong time and fall victim to evil circumstances. It's always been like that and always will. On the elevators today I kept thinking that I was going to the wrong floor even though I knew I pushed the right button.

I am sure if you seen my in public you would have no idea that I am metally distressed. Infact, people approach me all the time for directions or petty conversation. Plenty of people to talk to and they pick me...

Anyway, what I have reason can't fix lol