Holy shit man that's insane. Sorry for your loss honestly.

My only near death experience was at birth. Or when I was an infant or something... I don't really know the details. Parents had incredibly bad luck with me and my younger brother. Especially him since he was actually expected to die while I just had serious problems. Really could not imagine going through something like that...Guns scare the shit out of me. Been to a couple parties where there have been guns, some of my friends have had them, never really been comfortable around them.