Quote Originally Posted by BoxingGorilla
Like I said it's better for me that we are all long distance compadre. Nothing is expected from one another other than a smiley and a cool click now and again.

Friends we speak to in our daily lives expect more than a "Merry Christmas" left on the answeirng machine. Sometimes that's more than I can provide. It's not that I don't love my friends or miss my friends it's that it takes less face-to-face time for me to feel connected to someone. In order to function I need long stretches of solitude. When I get the urge to isolated myself no one can accept it. They feel forsaken and unimportant. I lose friends that way but it's my nature.

When cowboys passed each other in town it may have been 6 months since they spoke. They didn't feel like less of a friend because of it. I wish things were still that way...
Hey bro I feel exactly the same way. Since having cancer 7 years ago I've become one of the most unsociable guys you could ever meet. My mates still text me virtually weekend to go out but it is now accepted that I will only leave the house when I absolutely have to, i.e stag night, once a year holiday, best mates birthday etc.

Last year I didn't even go to my own birthday party! My mates booked a booze cruise and all went out in my honour, as for me I switched off the phone and stayed in bed watching a dvd!

Thing is I love my friends and all but I just prefer to be on my own most of the time. Not been able to work due to illness since 1999 has turned me into a virtual recluse.

But still a happy recluse nonetheless :P