RIP L.R.

[TheBESTP4P]

hey bro im sorry to hear this

i can partially relate i lost my grandma about a month ago myself. but yeah a mom is def so much more devistating obviously! my heart and prayers are out to you and your family bro!

do you atleast have any close family or close friends near by?

Hey man, thanks for responding.
Yeah, I'm lucky enough to have my girl and my grandparents and my uncles and aunts around, they;re all pretty much wrecked by this, and to be honest, I know I'm not, but I feel completely alone and isolated.

yeah well thats natural especially since u come from a single mother family. are u independant? you work? decent income? etc?

i hate to say this, but i left the house when i was 18 and never depended on my parents for nothing, plus they never gave me shiiiiiiiiit, but now almost 10years later i feel so relieved that i trained myself to be independant(emotionally, financially etc) to better myself for my future.

honestly all i depend on is myself and GOD. without GOD id be screwed big time!

with GOD i am who i am today and thats why so many haters hate on me!

so ride with GOD and you'll be ok bro!

Thanks again for the responce. I'm 25, so I'm independant... I guess. My income is S*** right now, but I work and go to school, I've been trying to better myself for her, trying to walk the line, to be a good man. I just got back to school because I was pretty much fucked up on drugs from the ages of 17-22, and she helped me so much with that horrid S***... it was so hard on her to see her strong young son waste away to nothing in front of her. She was poor, but she managed to somehow get $10,000 to put my sorry, lying, and theiving a** into rehab, and it was far out of town, and she came to see me every sunday, and she always brought me a carton of smokes to help me get through it.
I believe in God, but I'm pretty much F****** angry right now... I'm so mad he took her without taking me... she was my world.

that great! im happy you already over came so many great struggles already! although u have every right to be angry right now, never get angry or blame GOD. GOD is your friend you must learn to trust in him. there were so many times where i almost got killed, should of died so many times, ive been thru alot of hell and drama and BS myself, but in the end if u have GOD on your side u can do anything!

i too gave up on alcohol completely. ive been completely sober for almost 2 full years now. i learn to live a life that is more meaningful and healthy and happy for my own good. ive experienced alot of BS, hell, racism, violence, even sexual harassment etc etc. but all that drama is what made me who i am today and what makes me stronger. alot of weaker people who never been thru such things will never understand. but if you have GOD on your side you can do great things!

just keep your head up and get your stuff together and try to be as successful as you can in honor of your mother!