Thank you kindly for your words of encouragment. I know I shouldnt be mad at God - I feel guilty for being so angry, and she wouldnt want to be mad at him, but I can't deny how I feel... I probably wont respond to this thread for a day or so, so much shit going on right now... THis site really helps me get shit off of my mind, even if only for a few seconds... Im gonna go try and sleep, thanks again.