Quote Originally Posted by D_Monk
Damn guys I figured I'd get slammed for that one.
CCs all around.

You know, that statement comes form a premonition that I've allways had that I'd die before I turn 30.
And I've lived like it. I drink allot( I know that's a shocker to most of you) and I smoked allot unitl about a year ago, when I started weight training. I drive fast. I smoke weed sometimes, and I constanly put myself in bad positions. Maybe it will be a self-fullfilled prophesy, but I have no desire to die, I just don't live like there are consequenses. I do want to live to see my kids do well, but my biggest fear in life is to have them have to go without thier daddy. And I never was scared of death until I felt the love I feel when I'm around my babies. I'll be 29 this year. I've got allmost 1 million dollars in life insurance for my family because of it. The closer it gets the more I think about it. I have no idea how I'm going to go, but I truely believe I'll be gone before then. And as scared as I am of it, I still expect it.


I had the same thing as you years ago,I cant remember if its 47 or not though!! and im there right now Im 47 years, old dam it.
I thought it was 43 then 45, I was sure it was 40 and an od number..anyway.
IT started when a mate of mine back 20 years ago or more kept saying he would never make old bones.
we were into some drugs especially mushies and everything else and I was into fighting between the good and bad within my own space and mind whenever I got over the edge ,shit faced.
On day (when straight of all things) he convinced me what he said was true,I felt it as he said it.
I went home and layed awake and felt that he had attracted death and this situation to him,so I said to death .."Ok take me instead ,he has a girlfriend, a job, a life etc,I have nothing blah blah blah.
In those moments in my minds eye I saw him get smashed in a head on accident.
And when I thought (I'll swap) I got to see deaths focus turn to me, but I felt at that moment that my mate had no real love ,that he was using things only and Im ashamed to say I feared what I was trying to turn around and I sold him out; right then and there.

But not before I got to see me at the age of 43 I thought..I forget what number, it was a long time ago and I have tried to forget it and then I saw nothing.
But I looked at my clock when I opened my eyes and it said 11.11.
And I kid you not, every time Im not thnking and just glance at a clock guess what I see!
So Ive died a thousand deaths since that night in rememberance alone.
My mate died the exact way I visualized a few weeks later ,I did try to stop him physically by messing up his plans with other people and me taking them in my car and leaving him alone for a long journey that he wouldnt usually take! I thought i HAD HIM COVERED but still knew deep down what was to expire.
I have since learned that it is in the spirit,feeling and the mind that these things start to work and can also be stopped.
Physicality is the last thing that occurs in the process.

The thing is brother you can die off, you can kill who you were and renew yourself right here and now without it occuring in the flesh and that can be the profecy totally fullfilled.

Truth known you and me have died a thousand deaths already and havent really lived because of that fear and that overhanging burdon.

I have fearlesly done stuff just as you have thinking Im invinsable until I know when!
But that is just a dream /nightmare made real in the world by me.
Its not real freedom,not real anything.
Here on earth anything can be created,but nothing can be held onto because it is just a dream that is outside of eternity,a dream that we use to experience our own creative force in an area that cant affect the absoulute, Your soul the real you is in that ab -soul -ute.

So allow your experience and creation up until now to be that death you saw ,allow it to be your death of your fear of death and contiunue to evolve on in the now.

Turn and face it full on and deal with it,full on! after all YOU created it.

And that is all your here to do..create.

Now wake up , grow up and create something else!

You have found love mate. That is what we are and that is what survives duality.

We survive and we grow and we evolve .
IT doesnt stop there either, love grows better in new ground,after you have died to what you thought was really you.

You are that love that you found in others.And fear has no place there; it cant survive in true love.
You are your children and they are you.and so you are expanding your experience in their love and death has no place in that because death is only a veil that love penetrates both ways always.
Keep expanding as I am bro ,you will start to see that other children are the exact same love that your own are to you and so you and they are one in all this ,then it extends to larger people and situations and you realise that we are ALL ONE.
Ive expleined this in detail in a post the other week,that we can create anything here because of duality.Regarding what effects YOU in totality,There is no past (its over its gone,its Your choise if it has effects on you) ,no future it hasnt occured yet so its your choise if you wish to give fear to it or allow it to have power over you in any way),only now is your control and power really found, in the now moment can you change. you have to visualize new stuff so that your control in the now creates your new future.Things that you can touch seem so real but
duality ceases its power over the real you once you claim who you really are in the absoulute realm.
The eternal realm.
Claim it, live it.

Thats what you have done.

You have created a space in time that you belive your guard will be down enough so that death can enter you.
Now claim that same creative power ,consider you have died to it already and move on in love and you cant be touched until your soul really says your ready to move on.
Whether you belive or not, ask the creative divine force for help and hold on tight and look out cause it will .
ITs not religion ,its not a set of rules. it is just who you really are and what you really were made AS.
Reclaim and continue to evolve in Love and you are in the absoulute and death has no power over you until you choose to move on through it.