i've been thinking, as of right now, I am feeling crappy, obviously, but I know it will pass, don't know how long, but it will. Although I do keep looking at my phone, hping she would have called, left a message etc. pretty weak I know, but see I don't actually want to talk to her, just know that she broke, and is thinking about me, and that she made a mistake, other than that, I mean i need to make some changes, like switch things around, so im not in a lull and thinking about her,

besides that, I honestlythink that I will NOT take her back if she ever asks me that, even thinking bout the poke and run, if I get the chance, but chances are that I wont go that far, I am young, and right now and during our relationship i thought she was perfect etc. just like in the movies, but im sure as my life goes on, I will be plenty more women better than her, it just stings now, that is all.

I just wish this would pass sooner, so I can get on with my life, and not look at my phone, or check my email hoping, etc.