and about this commitement, I was fine with it, I mean I was young, and naive, at one point we were talking silly, and thinking we were gonna youknow, have a house, with a white picket fence, etc.

Which was fun, but totally unrealistic, now looking back, and I knew it, but still set myself up.

And now, what would be the reason for taking her back? (if it happens, which is a big if)
i now know that, whether or not i do want to have future with her, she will not be the only girl I will be with, which is sometihng I thoguth before all this, so that is why im thinking about not getting back with her, b/c what good will that do?

might be better to just cut loose huh?