re: Zen Master Pacfan and Taoist Andre.
I’m back. It makes me a bit uncomfortable when I talk too much about Zen, because Zen is more about experiencing than intellectualizing. Most westerners misunderstand Zen and tend to intellectualize it too much. Once I browsed through a large book about Zen written by a western mystic. But you see Intellectualizing Zen is antithesis of Zen itself, which is basically a way of clearing mind of thoughts instead of thinking. When we talk of other ideas, it’s natural to intellectualize, but it shouldn’t be so with Zen. That’s why when I engage in a long discussion here (or anywhere for that matter), I have to occasionally refresh myself by clearing my mind through meditation. This is because when I engage in long discussions, after a while I tend to be drawn by the discussion itself and start to think again in the usual mundane way. The right ways of thinking is done by first clearing our minds completely of our usual thoughts and prejudices, and then wait for the right answer to come. This is the way many famous discoveries were made. Remember Edison’s 99% perspiration and 1% inspiration. Therefore, so as not to intellectualize Zen too much, I’ll just talk about my long journey on the way to (because I’m not there yet totally) enlightenment. Here it goes:
My long road to enlightenment
When I was just a teenager, I was taught the rudiments of meditation. During meditation, I was supposed to keep my attention on one object and was to avoid straying away from it. Few years later, I decided to seriously pursue my meditation because I wanted peace of mind; that is, free from all negative thoughts and feelings. (Just remember, thoughts and feelings are separate matters – but – thoughts almost always control our feelings)
But over the years, no matter what I did during meditation, I wasn’t able to get rid of those negative thoughts. So one day I just decided to give up the idea of getting rid of them, just like the ‘if you can’t beat ‘em,’ thing, but of course I had no intention of ‘joining ‘em.’ Strangely, when I started to just let those negative thoughts be, but ignoring them, they began to bother me lesser and lesser. By letting them be and ignoring them, I was actually taking the sting out of them and more importantly I was able to let them go. When that happened, I began to have less negative thoughts and they were not as disturbing as before.
- Let it be, let it go - the most important principle of meditation
However, they didn’t disappear totally so I started to wonder why. After a long soul-searching, I found that our mind must be occupied by some thoughts, at least at the normal level. But at the same time, I also realized that negative thoughts and positives ones couldn’t occupy the same space (mind) at one time. So I realized that I must put positive thoughts in a space vacated by the negative one so they wouldn’t come back again. [This answers one of your questions, Diz] From there on, it was a seesaw battle between the good and the evil (lol), I mean between the negative and positive thoughts. Gradually, the positive started to win over the negative, until one day, it was almost totally positive, at least when I was meditating.
When that happened, strange things start to occur in my mind [I hope it’s not starting to sound like a fairy tale]. When positive thoughts, with the accompanying positive feelings, started to dominate my mind, the thoughts themselves started to disappear, while leaving behind only the feelings (positive). In other words, I became almost totally thoughtless, while feeling good at the same time. Then I gradually started to get into the ‘Zen state’ that was described in Diz’s quotes and my previous post here. To describe it a bit, what you feel in that state immediately is the energy and the sense of space. Even when you are in a small crowded room, when you close your eyes, you seem to be in an infinite space with an added dimension. Aside from that, you’ll also feel the energy flowing in your body, and when you close your eyes, you only feel the energy and the energy seems to merge with the space beyond. My theory for this perhaps is that the energy that flows from the body also flows thru the space and the energies are probably flowing between the body and the space in a seamless manner. That probably explains why I feel totally connected with the space surrounding me – because I’m feeling the energy, not my body, which we usually feel during the ordinary state. This is the level of enlightenment I’m in at this moment…
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Just remember the most important aspect of this philosophy I've learned - the principle of letting it be and letting go; here lies the most important secrets of meditation. Just recently, I think Andre quoted a famous Chinese philosopher something about holding on to or grabbing/grasping something, that was one good example of this principle. You may not understand the importance of this seemingly simple principle but if you pursue your Zen studies, eventually you will. Believe me, it's my nearly 30 year worth of wisdom that I gained thru meditation.
Ok, Dizaster, this all I can say on this topic. But if you have any question, you can post it here. I'll try my best to answer. Good luck, my friend.
Last edited by Andre; 11-16-2008 at 01:14 AM.
Reason: the word master doesnt sit right next to me bro, Im far from it.
Once in awhile, get outside in fresh air, take a deep breath & with a deep sigh, let out all the things that's bottled up inside you & be free, & you'll get a glimpse of nirvana.
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