A Night of Fights at My Gym

[Youngblood]

So my back might be really fukked.

I`ve been thru a bunch of testing, a 2 hr consult with a sports injury specialist /therapist, and then a 3 day process of trying various light exercises to gage my pain reactions to them. Am now being sent for a MRI or Catscan or whatever to further look for potential disc probs and he thinks it is a high possibility. lower lumbar. That I may have had it for a while but have just been fighting thru the pain, which basically I have...for almost 2 years. i`ve never been pain free.

I really hope this isn`t the case, cuz it will likely mean surgery. It may even be an end to boxing for me. I don`t really know. I just know I am fighting this national championship one way or another. And whatever happens after that happens.

If it comes down to it, and for some reason I can`t fight any more, Ill ofc be disappointed. But I wont be devastated. I have never thought of this as a career goal. i`ve had lots of people tell me i have everything it takes to be a pro, and a good one, but I honestly have no urge for that. I`ve always just wanted to go to the olympics, the highest level of amateur, and then persue a career in medicine. My desire to go into medicine is far stronger then my desire to be a pro boxer.

So yea this has been a shitty last little bit for me. I guess I will find out more after I get the results back from the tests. I go next week for them.

[Youngblood]

Got good news today, but still have to go for the MRI. Finally making some headway on the back pain and been told by him after latest consult my reactions were good, and not that of a herniation. What he has been guaging in me is leg weakness and likely other things. I had quite a bit of weakness in my left leg in comparison to my right. This was the thing that most troubled him. But it seems to have corrected itself some and likely will more as we continue treatments.

I've had this recurring pain and injury for more then 2 years and it forever flares up. Haven't been or fought pain free for a long time.

This is also the longest I've ever gone without working out. Without doing anything. It is something I struggle with, maybe much like a person with an eating disorder or something. It is hard to get my head around the feeling I am losing out when not training, or stunting my growth in the sport somehow. But I know in a practical sense this isn't true. That the body requires the rest, and forever training and fighting when injured if anything may be holding me back some. It's something I am comin to terms with, tryin to better understand.

I think I am on the right path tho. Won't be strapping on for even sparring or anything until he says I can, and will do as told for a change and not cheat a workout here and there as I often do. It's all a learning process. Often of self.

[Andre]

I was told that I would never work in my field of stonemasonry again mate!
They wanted me to get three lower vetrabrae fused together and I chose not to and lived with insane pain for a number of years even could'nt stand and had to crawl at times. Then I got shown a number of other ways to manage it from the inside out and the underlying 3 or 4 causes and now I lift larger stuff than I ever had before and for the most part Im feeling great; (unless my mind slips backwards and i get down and feel like Im doing it all on my own) Then trouble arises,but I Correct it then and I get back on track. Doctors look at the wear and tear on my L5 and say "you are very lucky".


There are many ways to skin a cat mate.

[Youngblood]

Thanks Andre. Yea Im still working through the process of mental talk, allowing myself to not do anything training related in the name of healing. It isnt that easy but so far so good. I go again for another treatment tomorrow and the MRI. Feel I'm making progress.

So tonight I stayed home fighting the urge to go to the gym. Woot go me! Fought off the urge. My coach calls me 10 mins ago and tells me there is a CTV (Canadian Television News) crew waiting for me to get there. haha. They are doing a short documentary thingy on me and amateur boxing in Canada and were surprise visiting with cameras filming. I knew they were coming just not when and told them a while ago i'm there on such and such days and times without fail. lol o well...doing it starting Friday I guess.

[Youngblood]

So had the tv thingy tonight. A 2 hr long them filming and interviewing and threw my back out right in the middle. haha My coach not wanting to let on I was hurt bringing me to a back room to stretch it out all hush hush like to complete the interview...as it hurt so bad I almost puked.

Was told to go easy by my therapist for this but am coming to realize I don't really have that gear. Never have. Only have go hard.

ah well Fuck it. I was due for a party anyway, so hello vodka, goodbye pain.

[Youngblood]

my back is feeling a lot better. I missed my appointment today with my doc cuz simply forgot about it as was hungover on the vodka christmas partying thingymajigga. d'oh. That stuff is pretty good with cranberry juice actually. Hardly taste it. But yea, feeling better so all this rest might be paying off. Not used to doing nothing...

A friend of mine who works for the CTV (Canadian Television Network) wants to do a documentary thing on canadian amateur boxing and use me the center piece for both local and national coverage. They did one tv brief spot already. I've shared it with a few of you on facebook. Here it is on youtube. It was kinda embarassing actually, the attention I got on facebook and thru our club. Not sure I liked it a lot.

http://www.youtube.com/user/IamYoungblood


I've been putting it off, the documentary thing, because my back injury might be more serious then just strained muscles that I hoped. And that sux. But w/e...will do what I have to, and one way or another I will be fighting for our National Championship, if even am only at 60-70%. I've been fighting hurt for nearly 2 years now, so one more fight I don't see a problem with. Just kinda sux wont have the fights in for prep like I woulda hoped. hopefully can get well enough to hard spar leading up. If i can get well enough and have a good championship, then I'll prob do the docu thing.

[Scrap]

Pm me I know whats wrong.