Random Inquiry

**Spicoli** · 03-10-2011 02:07 AM

My heart and mind beat the living shit out of one another lately. when I used to get depressed it would turn to anger...seemed to help it pass, or at least give it direction. Course it also eats your soul and makes you a prick

pertaining to bed I've actually gone to bed not thinking I would wake, be it health or a kick ass hurricane coming. curious as to how/who would 'find' you in AM...clean up the house etc. I know, fucked up

**Gandalf** · 03-10-2011 07:34 AM

Of course and I think the vast majority of people probably do.

Feeling bummed out as you put it is just one of those cycles we go through. Right now I am feeling pretty great about a lot of things, but will it last? Nah, something will bring me down and it will likely just be a switch adjusting in my mind. I have this propensity to be immensely satisfied, but alternately I can sink into the darkest of places. It's not easy keeping a balance. I probably abused my mind too much when I was younger.

**boozeboxer** · 03-10-2011 07:19 PM

Originally Posted by miles

Of course and I think the vast majority of people probably do.

Feeling bummed out as you put it is just one of those cycles we go through. Right now I am feeling pretty great about a lot of things, but will it last? Nah, something will bring me down and it will likely just be a switch adjusting in my mind. I have this propensity to be immensely satisfied, but alternately I can sink into the darkest of places. It's not easy keeping a balance. I probably abused my mind too much when I was younger.

Perhaps you are bi-winning?

**:::PSL:::** · 03-10-2011 10:48 PM

I usually keep myself bu$y - put myself in very productive mood, or jam with my friends in garage band when I'm in shit storm.

If it's a financial problem. Then I would try borrowing money from my close friends and relatives.

Marital problem? Hmm..mm I don't know. Depends how bad. Most men are shit out of luck in that issue.

Is this a mid life crisis thread?

**Nameless** · 03-11-2011 12:29 AM

I thought about suicide a few times but 3 things refrained me:

1) the fact that once dead, I won't feel that "release" that I was seeking, that the very last sensation I felt would be despair and sadness, which means... no release at all as I can't see the deliverance neither feel it because I am dead with no sensations and because in the very last fraction of my life, I'll go with the utterly unpleasant feeling that drove me through despair.

2) A sense of responsibility toward those who love/like me and that would be deeply hurt if I would commit suicide, that we want it or not, we are born with some kind of moral responsibility to those around us and some of these people are way too beautiful and kind to be hurt/shattered/destroyed in such way.

3) I know that these moments will pass and that once passed, I will think "yeah, that was a stupid idea otherwise you would not have experienced the present moment and how gooodd is it".

I feel you but the next nice moment you'll live will be worth the wait, trust me.