I Fucked up plain and Simple, I dumped a girl I love back in june cause I thought I could do better I am a player of sorts and have dated many of women but she was a friend and then after a while we started going out and we fell in love,anyway I thought I could do better for some dumb ass reason.Now I regret and I am cut to the heart cause I want to see her again personally, I said bad awful things to her because I hated her past (mind is worse than hers) To make matters worse she is a bartender at the local pub I go to and for 3 months I never went when she was there..A few weeks ago I went with some friends when she was working and after 2 hours I was all sorts of LOVESICK and I hate it, I saw her tonite and I miss her so much I want to talk to her but she wont call me...

Please advise I wll answer rany questions and entertain SERIOUS counsel on the matter I AM HURTING BAD!!!!!!!!!