Alright guys, I'm back on Saddo's after a self inflicted hiatus...
Can someone tell me wtf is wrong with me?
My gf's family had been applying tons of stress, in various ways and just made my life a pressure cooker. Still managed to have a great Christmas, but it pretty much killed the relationship between myself n B.
We parted in January, pretty nasty really, but I can put my hands up and swear I did right by my baby girl.
I'd been training heavily and I won a couple of boxing comps in February. My head was in a blender so I pretty much won them on reflexes and fitness alone, it was pretty surreal. I was on a short-lived high and got a sports bursary from my college because of the wins.
This gave me enough money to get me through college.
Been taking a lot of stuff from my ex, she's regretting it now and taking it out on me in a big way ever since.
Since I boxed last I've turned into the most self destructive dude I know.
I'm abusing my body, not with substances or anything, just not eating/training properly and boxing retarded, standing straight in front of bigger fellas and getting my face ripped open....
Why the hell am I doing this just for a kick?
I've been doing amateur MMA too, really hard fights, but I just can't focus myself to train at all. I train like a machine for 3/4 days, eat really well for a bit and then I just don't follow up
I box this day next month and haven't thrown a punch in about 4 weeks.
When we were about 3 months apart I moved on, met with a bunch of different girls and all that. Was never more than briefly interested.
Then later I started meeting up with a girl I'm in college with.
She's one of the good ones and seemingly well into me.
Got pretty close to her as friends and we've both said we'd meet up in September and maybe give it a go...
I kid you not fellas this girl is just amazing.
Problem is....I'm scared shitless.
I got my results yesterday.
I got a second class honours.
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