Okay the thread title is misleading...
What i'm talking about, is those people who have a smirk on their face in court, while their verdict is being read out.... And you here all the people going, "oh he's so evil, he just smirked while he was being found guilty and spending a lifetime in jail... He's so sick how he just smiled" "who could smile after all he's done, and he's gong to die now and he's laughing about it"....
Well, these people who say that just don't get it..
I'm one of those smilers... It's just a quirk of my personality, or of my emotional programming... When an awkward situation is happening where some sort of wild emotion is supposed to be experienced, yet I don't feel it, I smirk.... It just happens automatically... Like when I heard about my grandma had died, and my cat, and my girlfriends mum had cancer, and her dog had to get put down, and the cat she had that loved me died, etc etc,,,, I smile, or actually, smirk...
It's not in the least because I actually find something about the situation funny,,, it just that is how I react, and I don't really know why... I think partly because I don't cry, or don't break down, or don't do anything else really, except smile....
Like, it's in my nature to laugh when someone falls over... LONG after the average person has seen the fall, had their laugh, and moved on completely, i'm still playing it over in my head and bursting into uncontrollable laughter... But that's a whole other thing..
When bad things happen, or bad news happens, or i'm supposed to be showing something has really affected me, I smile....
I remember one time at my work, this lady I didn't know much got really upset and quit.. She was going around to her friends there and was crying and the people she was saying bye to were crying, and man, I couldn't get the fucken grin off my face... Any time someone would cry a bit louder, I would smile like this .... If anyone actually saw me at that moment they may think i'm some sick f'ck who gets MUCh enjoyment out of other people's misery..
I don't, it's just how I react....
Anyone else do this? Or am I a sick, twisted, emotionally messed up serial killer and I just don't know it yet..
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