Alrighty then... so you see.. I have this friend, her name's Amber and I love her very very dearly aight?
We've always seemed to dance on the line between friendship and relationship and played a little on both sides without commiting to the latter...yet..
But I've heard various lines of why we can't be together from her...
Things like "I don't want to ruin our friendship." to "You're too wonderful" to "I don't deserve you..."
But everytime we get together it seems like there's a moment when she doesn't feel that way...hell we've shared a romantic moment during a rendition of "Ice Ice Baby" that was playing on her computer...
Well...let me tell you...something almost happened between us recently..here's the story..
I'd decided I was going to get her a present so I decided I'd buy this nice heart necklace that had the outline of a heart on the outside and on the inside there was a heart that was made of some type of jewelry, I forget what it was but it was pink..and it looked like jade in terms of smoothness (but it was pink) and I have no idea what it was.
Anyway, I walked over to her house and she invited me in..so she sat at the computer and looked at me and I said to her
"Remember when I told you that in everyone's life there's a time when their heart just feels empty, like they have no motivation to do anything and sit around wondering what their purpose is?"
And her eyes widened and she said "What did you do?" in a tone that said, she knew I had gotten her something.
So I said "Well...and then remember I told you that during that time my heart was empty, you came and filled it?" And then I smiled at her. And again she said "what did you do!?" and I said to her that I had gotten something that defined that.... and so I took out a box(that had the necklace in it) and she looked me in the eyes and said "If there's something in that box that's gonna make me cry I'm gonna kick your ass!" and she smiled. So when I showed her the necklace she almost did start crying and she got up and said "You asshole!!" and was laughing, and then she stopped for a moment and got up and walked to a corner and just stood there for a while... then when she turned around she ran at me and kissed me and wrapped her arms around me. And I kissed her back and she looked into my eyes and said "Why did you make me cry?" And I just shook my head with a little innocent smile on my face. Then she said "Well...I got you something too, but you got here before I could even wrap it" then she smiled and ran to the closet and started going through there and she took a bag out... and inside that bag were two Raiders fitted caps. NICE looking! And she is a Niners fan for all you out there, soe hates the Raiders with a passion but she actually went to the Raiders store in Niners gear and got me this
So she took one of the hats out and threw off my Lakers one and said "there..you look so much cuter in that.." And then I just couldn't help but be a little surprised... I wasn't really expecting anything in return but she had get me a gift without knowing I had gotten her one..and that impressed me. So then we almost kissed again and she stopped me and she said "We can't.." And I said "Are you sure?" And she said "Yeah I'm really sure.." So later on that night we were just bein around, relaxing went for a walk and she always looked as if something was on her mind... so when we got back to her place she said to me "Remember when I said I was gonna kick your ass?" And I said.. "Yeah but it aint happenin" and then she tackled me to the ground and held me there and sat on top of me. And then she got this look in her eyes as she was looking at me and she leaned down and kissed me again.. so I told her "I thought you said you were sure?" And she smiled and said "I lied..." so then she started kissing me more and started grinding her waist against mine while she was laying on top of me As she was making out a little more she whispered "I love you" in my ear... so I whispered it back... and then she layed her head on my chest and kissed me again and looked in my eyes...
Then all of a sudden something came over her..again.. and she got up instantly and said "We cant..." and then she went and walked over to the computer as if nothing had just happened lol. But she didn't sit down, so I just walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist and kissed her again and she leaned back in my arms and just moved with me as a slow song was playing on her computer..I forget the slow song name... but she closed her eyes and just leaned into my arms...
At THAT moment...my mom called my cell phone.. GREAT (sense the sarcasm in that Great, folks?)
And said that I had BETTER be home in the next 5 minutes, and until I can afford to stay at the dorms at my college I have to do what she says lol.
So I let go of Amber slowly and she told me "I don't want you to go..." and then I said to her "I don't want to go either.." so she grabbed ne and held me and kissed me again... and she said "call me when you get home.." so when I got home thats exactly what I did..I called her, and when she picked up she was crying her eyes out for some reason...and we talked a little bit and I made her feel better botu what was going on(family stuff, won't get into it on here)
But ever since then when I go see her, it's like we're back to being best friends...and almost as if that night never happened..
And I'm really really confused What do I do about her..and this?
What do you all think? I really need some advice here...
-Majesty
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