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Seriously I don't know what it is but every so I often I have this feeling that something real bad is going to come to pass. It's not so much specific to me but to a loved one or the world but in actuality it is more of just a general shits gonna hit the fan at any minute. I'm not depressed and I don't think it's ptsd or anything it just is
Quite often. It's something I can't really shake off. In a fucked up modern central bank run system surrounded by war mongers you cannot help but feel helpless. It's not a question of if you will die, it is just when.
we are all already dead. Muhammad said in the Hadith: "You should live in this world as if you are already dead." It means it is all illusion and living in denial that at any moment as you eat, dream, work, shop or speak to your loved ones YOU CAN JUST DROP. FUCKING DONE.
So stick that money up your ass
total emptiness inside
blew your time by earning cash
now filled with formaldehyde
All the time, whether I am picturing the bus that I am in coming off the road, some impending illness that hasn't quite reached the surface yet, getting caught up in a bombing, having a heart attack or a stroke, these things go through my head several times a day, they always have done.
That is part of the reason why I started looking up and researching the mysteries of space, it makes you realise how insignificant you are and that if something was to happen it wouldn't really matter.
The other day I was chewing on a piece of plastic and actually thought 'I wonder how long it'd take me to choke to death if I accidentally swallowed this...I wonder how long it'd take anyone to find me' thoughts like that don't bother me anymore.
No. Love life and never want it to end.
Master that is precisely why we always think about this stuff. No creature wants to die. It is wired into every creature to try to stay alive until the very very end. But because we all know it subconsciously most people are afraid to bring it to the conscious surface because they think it would make them feel depressed. However sometimes you have to look at it like Batman just said and constantly picture that anything can happen at any moment.Quote:
Originally Posted by Master
I think having kids helps. It forces you to remember to see things thru their eyes and they live in the moment. Every second wasted looking back or forward just detracts from that.Quote:
Originally Posted by Master
yeah dudes common
live in the moment
I am sure that you are pretty much on top of your health but it can be indicative of a heart condition. MVP (Mitral Valve Prolapse) can flood your body with stress hormones that people often mistake for panic attacks. It feels like an impending sense of doom.Quote:
Originally Posted by walrus
There is no question that that is correct. It would definitely distract you from focusing either deliberately or automatically on time passing and the gossamer and flimsy nature of our very breath and existence from moment to moment. However even if that did help which I just said it would I also feel that is a form of denial in a way although it is not deliberate by focusing on anything else it's simply diss tracks from that ever-present and maddening truth. So whether the kids distract you or you have a hobby that distracts you or you have some type of endeavor or Focus that distracts you it is still a form of not looking at it which is not necessarily bad but I am just saying it doesn't matter what we do because we are all headed there at any moment.Quote:
Originally Posted by BeanzI think having kids helps. It forces you to remember to see things thru their eyes and they live in the moment. Every second wasted looking back or forward just detracts from that.Quote:
Originally Posted by Master
Remember this is not a dress rehearsal.
Make the most of it and cherish every moment.
Fortunately it's not that. I only know because I had a bad case of vertigo a while back and I got several ekg and other tests so for the time being my health is ok but even that is temporary one day my health will go completely to shitQuote:
Originally Posted by BeanzI am sure that you are pretty much on top of your health but it can be indicative of a heart condition. MVP (Mitral Valve Prolapse) can flood your body with stress hormones that people often mistake for panic attacks. It feels like an impending sense of doom.Quote:
Originally Posted by walrus
@Master in many many religions it is 100% a dress rehearsal for the afterlife.
Not for me, why worry about the afterlife when today should matter.Quote:
Originally Posted by brocktonblockbust
Just curious are u an atheist?Quote:
Originally Posted by MasterNot for me, why worry about the afterlife when today should matter.Quote:
Originally Posted by brocktonblockbust
Live less wondering what shoe is next to drop and more on the ones that move you forward :cwm13:.
Master we are all being judged by a greater being. You already failed just from being a massive prick as a moderatorQuote:
Originally Posted by Master
Sensitive people will always have that anxiety about them and I disagree with the having children solution. If anything it would make the feelings of impending doom even worse as an intelligent person can see quite clearly that society is going the wrong way and it will only ever be more difficult for the next generation unless you are rich. That would make it even more stressful, then there is the cost and time of having to raise a child.
My solutions are more simple and direct. All you can do really is work on the mind and body. Make sure you are getting the nutrition you need. Are you getting enough magnesium in your diet? That is natures body relaxer and stress reducer. Did you start going to the gym yet? That will get your body flowing and release natural feel good chemicals. Make sure you are not eating any harmful foods. Starting with those two areas is a good start. I feel better when I exercise and eat better, I turn to shit when I don't.
Miles are you asking an ex forces guy like Walrus whether he has thought about going to the gym? We don't all stand behind a desk you know. Nobody is saying kids are a solution for anxiety or depression, just reflecting on the facts of our lives. Masters kids are still young and I now have 3 grandkids 5 and under running around a couple times a week. Believe me you do not have much time to spend thinking about your own demise when you have them around.
The reason I mentioned the gym, Beanz is because Walrus has mentioned he is thinking about joining a gym. If you are thinking about joining a gym it suggests that you have a desire or need to exercise. It is just good for you, innit? When you are feeling dark thoughts, the first thing to do is think about exercise and then diet. The mind is a rotter, but the best way to help it is to make sure everything else is ticking over properly. There was an episode of Chatterjee where he helped a young girl with trauma and anxiety and it seemed to be about those things.
If people want to have kids then good for them, but I don't think that is the first thing you think of doing when dealing with feelings of impending doom. When I am feeling down I don't think 'I better go and make a baby'. If anything it would create a lot more stress. I cannot speak for Walrus, but part of my own anxiety is a lack of security. I work on temporary contracts and it's difficult to just get through life. Wages out here have stagnated for over a decade and things only seem to be going one way. The nature of what I do means this kind of permanent dislocation, a permanent discombobulation of the senses, a continual unease. Life is difficult. It's never easy.
Exercise is definitely good for your mind. You can do a lot at home though if you have a job that means you walk, carry and move around a lot. Free weights are not expensive and body weight exercises are manifold.
Miles is right I did mention joining a gym. I don't work out that much anymore. My weekend job is physical, it's the kind of job you get beat up physically a bit so yes there is more I could do to help these thoughts but I have to admit I think I, and it's sad to say, enjoy being stuck in morbidity sometimes. I did buy a PlayStation 4 last November and I finally started playing it. A few published medical reports say video games are good for the brain and my help ward off dementia. Took me a while to find a game I liked but I got a Star Wars game and although I keep getting killed off its kind of fun. My most recent spell of impending dooms feeling has passed. I think I got a bit warped all the years of working mental health and jails etc. I think cutting back those hours and continuing in my new career is only going to help. Miles is right, life is very hard sometimes but once in a while u can squeeze out a few ounces of beauty, then it's back to the shit
You wouldn't be human if you didn't have them. It's a bit like when we listen to a song, you are drawn more to songs about lost love and existential dread rather than happy dance tunes where everything is all bubblegum glee. We are complex, sad, tragic souls and you cannot just erase it from your identity completely. I think sometimes if I wasn't moaning about something, then it wouldn't be me and that wouldn't be genuine either.Quote:
Originally Posted by walrus
Between His excruciating shifts, car repairs, snowblower/lawnmower situations, Oreos and Slim Jim's, and Pall Malls, ****WALRUS AINT JOINING SHIT****
FACT
@Fenster
not unless Im in south Korea
Parts of Texas are a couple feet away from becoming a permanent fish tank. Abscess tooth. Vindictive Ex. And Pop thinks he flew B-17's in Vietnam ffs. Great story when he tells it but makes no sense whatsoever. I admire the commitment :-\. Been a bit of a doom day but we carry on.
doom is rated on a smaller scale per the individual.
Damn you hit that coming doom in the head. Hope you ain't near that epic delugeQuote:
Originally Posted by Spicoli