[quote=sourpuss;569898]I'd love to go to a sports psychologist if I could afford one. Know of any good books? Maybe they could figure out why I'm such a slow starter, it's like I have to be losing to really let my hands go.
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Freaky! I have exactly the same problem!

It's almost as if things need to push you beyond a certain intensity to fully engage some aggressiveness and switch off from the point scoring mentality.

It's as if all your subconsciously formed automatic reactions don't come into play before then and the little tappy tappy things girls score points with don't even register!

Perhaps because bigger people naturally have heavier hands so the force we might feel from a direct jab from an opponent the same size is more like what we notice when our guard gets hit by someone bigger?

Perhaps also it's a habit from sparring heavier people to go light when you want them to go light because you know especially against relative beginners or in your case youngsters if you put pressure on and fluster them - even without hurting them - they can easily respond by lifting their power.

Do you think that's it?