confidence.

[Youngblood]

I been fighting for a while, mostly street fights, not really cuz I'm a tough guy or anything like that, Its just common and hard to avoid. And at around 14 I started boxing in the street... My problem is... That Though I have alot more fights I've won, than lost... The losses (non boxing) stand out in my mind, and they hold me back alot from believing I can win. Its mostly cuz of one or two fights in particular, that I should and could have won, but didn't, and it had alot of pride riding on it.. & I guess, I never forgave myself for'em...

Its just now its hard to in vision myself winning... like I don't even Trust telling myself I can, cuz I feel like I'm fooling myself. Now I want to get in a boxing gym and do the real thing, But I'm not sure of myself. I know the heart is there cuz the last thing I am is a quitter. But mentally, I'm not.

Anyone relate, or have any advice?

You just about lost me, and likely other readers at the highlighted part.

But I did read on. If confidence is something you lack, the boxing gym is the place you'll find it. And it won't be because of your new found awesome ability to kick ass on the streets, it will be because if you stick with it, you will acquire one of boxings greatest gifts. Self-respect, through hard work and determination.

So the short answer? Get your ass to the gym.