Thanks to everyone for their advice, I'm using the meditation technique from scraps and it's working, the advice HerbM gave me really worked as well. Still not quite there, but definitely getting there. I've started fighting in a different style as well that I never thought about doing before, just came natural and it seems to be working so far. But even my trainer is saying he's starting to see a change in how I fight. I'm not flinching anymore, but just squeezing my eyes a little now, so only a little more to go before returning to normal

Thanks everyone, it really helped, all of it.