Actually the inverse is true your hostility towards atheism is clear in your ready adoption of the term Militant secularism. I have no aggressive attitudes towards Christianity, nor need to prove anything to myself. I simply do not wish my children and grandchildren to grow up in a world dominated by religious bigotry. It is a peculiar selfish brand of religion that does not care what anyone else believes. The point of a forum is to express a viewpoint, I will not apologize for airing mine or for your primary level understanding of Psychology. I do not presume to guess at your psychological state of mind despite your copious weird posts revealing your wish for cathartic release and impersonal therapy.
May I suggest a trip to the synagogue, Judaism has a long history of being able to question God and could well answer more questions for you than an impersonal confession box.
Peace and Love
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