Fathers Day

[Spicoli]

Nothing i hate my father.

May take some time bro...

[ICB]

Nothing i hate my father.

May take some time bro...

My father hasn't been living with us for quite some time, not going to mention what he did but after my mom begged him to come home and he didn't. I hit him and i haven't seen him since i have a strong bond with my mom as CFH knows and no one treats her like shit and gets away with it especially my so called "father".

[Spicoli]

Nothing i hate my father.

May take some time bro...

My father hasn't been living with us for quite some time, not going to mention what he did but after my mom begged him to come home and he didn't. I hit him and i haven't seen him since i have a strong bond with my mom as CFH knows and no one treats her like shit and gets away with it especially my so called "father".

I hear you man...I have had far too many close conflicts and fisticuffs with male counter parts to my Sisters as well as Mom.Dad had some rough career/personnel edges early on but did the best with what he had no matter what...to this day he regrets alot but still wears a hard shell,sort of like me ...told me a couple of times "I dont like you but I have too love you" that will stay with ya?.... Every family situation is different in ways.Just me but Never permanently write off family...Goodluck ICB.

[Youngblood]

Yea ICB, ya know, every mothers day used to be a source of anger and shame for me. I have never had a mom as she abandoned me and us after I was born. Well other kids made their moms gifts on mothers day, i made mine and threw it in the garbage. When kids talked about their moms, i just felt a hollow spot grow and ache in my belly. For many years I was teased viciously at school for not ever having a mother. Kids saying some of the worst things you can imagine. Some days I was so angry I would come home and punch holes in my walls. Other times cry myself to sleep. Other times filled with so much hate I wanted to kill myself or others. I know what hate is for a parent.

My dad put me in boxing to help me deal with the anger. In counselling to work out the feelings. It still creeps up on me from time to time, but I have largely learned to feel sorry for my mom. She is sick with bi-polar disorder, and is also just a selfish person who is missing out on the wonder that is me and my sister. It has taken some time to realise this, and even longer to believe it. But I am now just starting to forgive her and it is helping me find a peace within myself. Hate is far too much of a burden for one to carry, and the consequences can de dire.

Just thought I would share some of what I know about hating a parent, and hope it helps.

I cannot imagine where I'd be today if my dad and grandma weren't here to do the job they have, and love me like he have. Hate can be devastating, but love can go a long way.