Yeah, I see what you are saying...and you're not the first to say it to me either. I get down before I fight and I let things get to me. I can only remember one time when I went in 100% confident and ready and it really blew up in my face.
This time though I think I'm just being realistic. I don't know, I've probably cried wolf too many times. Haha. I feel like I'm just going along to please everyone else and I'm just going to lose and be embarrassed.