sourpuss's training log

[sourpuss]

I gave him your number, he should be calling you any day now.


I didn't get my hard work out in that I had hoped. Oh well. I think that will just have to wait until Saturday.

Skipping and shadowboxing warm up
Mitts, about 4 x5min rounds
Bag drills 4 x3 min rounds
Sparring 4x 3min rounds


....then I literally forgot to run, I remember on the drive home. Oh well, I'll run in the morning.

[sourpuss]

Same deal different day....

Warm up s kipping and shadowboxing.

3 x 3 min rounds on the bag focusing on power
3 x 3 min rounds on the bag focusing on speed
5 x 3 min rounds sparring

4 miles on the treadmill doing tempo running and sprints.

[sourpuss]

2 hours of raquetball

5 x 3 min rounds on the bag


....probably go run later if I have time.

[sourpuss]

I driving over to the next town to do some sparring with the guys they have there today. It's and hour and a half drive each way, but it's worth it....at least I hope it is.

[sourpuss]

Well, that didn't really have the effect I was hoping for.

I was hoping that getting some decent, competitive sparring would spark some motivation for me. Quite the opposite. It pretty much reaffirmed that I've really regressed. The frustrating part is that I can't get back in the gym and work on what's making me worse, because my work in the gym is making me worse.

There are no competitions on the horizon either. So I don't really see the point.

I'm drafting an email to my coach right now telling him I'm quitting. He's not going to take it well. I've the longest member of the club and we're very close, my folks and I even spent Christmas at his house. He's going to take it personal, unfortunately.

[Sharla]

If he hasn't seen your frustration he's blind so I doubt it will come as a suprise.

So you know it's a sign of how things are going and not just a bad day or feeling run down?

I know off days happen but i guess if it's clear you are not getting any improvement for your efforts then it's hard to stay motivated!

Sorry to hear things haven't gone well!

Maybe think of it as quitting this situation but not everything you love about boxing.

Leave yourself open to continue training - perhaps boxing at another gym if you find yourself able to or in a similar sport.

It can be the end of this situation but it doesn't have to be the end of what boxing has meant to you.

Youngblood gave me these non wilting flowers as a symbol of hope so now I'm going to pass them onto you:



Also I think you should keep posting otherwise we'll miss ya! Of course that's an entirely selfish request and if you find it too depressing I guess I'd understand!

[sourpuss]

Thanks Sharla! Those flowers are wonderful.

Erg, I'm very conflicted. Part of me wants to just suck it up and make the most of the few years I have left of this and part of me can't bear not being able to be the best.

If I could just show up to the gym a couple of days a week and train a little and fight a few times a year, I would. But I'm obsessive (you know how that is ) and I want to be the best and fight the best. I'm an all or nothing kind of person. And so far it's been train like crazy, fight whoever is put in front of me and train some more. Maybe I just got burnt out, I don't know.

My coach didn't take it well. He just wrote me a nasty email back saying that he's taking it personally. Erg!

A friend of mine called last night and made a good case as to why I shouldn't quit. So it gave me some things to think about.

Either way, I'm still going to run as many races as I can this year so I'll be posting here.