thanks for the 'sorry' stuff and all, but really not looking for that. I'm 16 yrs old. almost 17. have seen so many close friends die, that you might want to think twice before befriending me. friends 2x2 walking in front of transports, in front of cars late at night going home, shootin themselves, hanging themselves, druggin out...i don't think I am fucking with the numbers at all to say you got a like 5 yr window once you get close to me before your ass ends up on the wrong end of the living a long life hope bet..at, like 50/50 u don't make it past 5.

i know it is just some kinda weird fucking numbers/probability deal, like, you know, some guy wins the lottery somewhere...and somewhere else there is a person like me with these shit numbers. and when all is said and done it all works out...

it isn't just that i'm mad at my friend for his stupid fucking choices, though I am currently. I'm fairly pissed off at the law of averages and how badly I am getting screwed by them in the friend and family mortality rate.