Damn....I don't know what to tell you Youngblood. All I can say for myself is if you ever need to vent or need someone to listen to you then I'm here.

Life can be very tragic as you've found out. When I was your age I too struggled with loss. I didn't lose friends, but family members but it was psychologically and emotionally taxing nevertheless. Each passing year brought new loss to me: Grandfather, Great Grandmother, a couple of Great Uncles, and the most devistating my 12 year old cousin. Since then I've lost more family members and even some friends, some like your friends selfishly and needlessly at their own hands. My life goes on, the why and the how are unknown to me but I press on and I hope you can do the same...the strong press on, and though I do not personally know you I can sense a strength in you.