so ya fuck the niceities

[Youngblood]

people seem to die around me all the fucking time. not being melodramatic, just kind of how it is. no idea what our mortality rate is here, or that of people close to me. but it has to off the fuckin charts. i wrote not long ago, about a dude i know...April first (of all fuckin days) who went and hung his dumb self in the park we used to chill at...close to his girlfriends place, day after she broke off with him. tragic huh? ya i thought so. felt pretty sad about it. that was what...bit over 3 weeks ago.

and then there is today., where my best friend just up and ODs.and im not sad at all, im pissed off.

you don't get many really good friends in life i would imagine. like, best friend types. but i had a few, and we called ourselves the crew. we been together a long time. and the longest of all of us, my friend Luke. we've known each other since grade 3. he joined boxing with me. has had a few fights. we see each other every day. EVERY fucking day. could tell him anything, heard about everything from him, and so it goes.

and now just like everyone else close to me, i spare the niceties i posted elsewhere today, to say FUCK YOU buddy, and what the hell were you thinking? fucked around with drugs and just kept going and going and just like that...u decide to do fentanyl patches and drink with a buncha your brand new asshole druggie friends...and up and die on me.

And reading all these "I miss you so much" posts from 1000 people who didn't know you at all...even wrote a few myself to be politically correct, but it wasn't the truth. ya i miss him, but not in the nice way...in the ...what the fuck dude...u stupid selfish fucking idiot... way.