Ok Andre, I'm pretty sure you're pretty tired of replying to my posts here so you don't have to reply this one. I'll wrap this up with this post.

But before I wrap it up, I just want to clarify one thing. About the self. I haven't got any words to describe all aspects of the mind so I'll just make them up (I won't be using the word ego here anymore coz I'm not really sure what it means.) - Actually there is one self, though it is a multi-faceted one, or perhaps more accuratedly it has many characters. But there is this higher self - maybe this is the only true self -who wants to advance but is always dragged down by this ancient, survival/fear driven beast within us all, who has almost absolute control over it. This beast is the one that make you feel all the negative emotions in you and who constantly bombards you with all the can't do, shouldn't do, and all other negative thoughts. Everyone is always trying to get out of its control but to no avail, and most fail to do so for life. But on a very, very rare ocassion when one does get himself out of its clutches, he will experience deep joy within and he is free to soar high and ultimately able to accomplish anything he can imagine, and the best of it is that he is always at peace with himself and with the world. This is simply because he is able to connect himself to the channel to universal mind or energy once he is freed from the shackles of the beast in us...

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I've always thought about these things but in more of on-and-off way, sometimes seriously, other times no very seriously and still other times, not at all - sometimes for a long time. And I've never sort of really seriously did any homework for this kind of thing either. But few months back, when I thought about it seriously, I was surprised to find out that it was all already there - in my mind. I've actually accumulated all these things gradually without me not being much aware of it. So now here I am with some truths about this world which has never been revealed before, many in their barest forms.

But, a big but - I'm not very sure whether I'm supposed to reveal this to the whole world at this time - as they say, there is a right time for everything. So I decided to just plant some seeds, starting here at the saddos and elsewhere later on, and see what happens. You see what I write could be potentially very divisive, as the world might not be ready for this, especially it might affect the beliefs or religions of many people. I've never seen anything like this written anywhere and by anyone in such details as I have in my mind. If I were half as ambitious as my good friend fenster believe I am - printing newsletters for several bucks every week or month - sheesh! (...on a second thought, not a bad idea, I might do just that) - I'd immeditely write the whole thing down, which is enough to easily fill a book, and do everything to have it published. But again, I'm not sure about this thing so I've decided to just spread some seed for now. I believe letting destiny take care of itself especially when it comes to matters like this. And so if it is the right time, it will find it's own way somehow, somewhere, I firmly believe. But if it's not, it will stay with me forever and I've got absolutely no problem with that. I've let go of all those things like ambition, pride, fame or whatever. I've learned to let go of these things. I am perfectly contented with whatever will come out, or not come out, of this. There is a perfect time for everything.