Quote Originally Posted by CFH View Post
Yeah, I don't feel like I am over the loss at all, and honestly, though I my grades have stayed the same (A/A- avg.), I am not really interested in school at all right now. Having a full-time course load doesn't make it any better either I'm afraid, I feel like I could do with a bit less pressure. I'm a little older than your average university student though, I was 25 when my mom passed away. Owing to a drug-addled and reckless youth I didn't enter post-secondary studies until I was about 23/24ish (which makes me feel like a bit of a loser, but whatever). Thanks for the kind words Bilbo, I think I'm leaning towards dropping the course, because I'd rather waste a couple hundred bucks than get a shitty grade that dogs the rest of my academic steps. Like I said, I've completed all the anth. pre-requisites (that I need to this point), so the course it just an elective, making it non-essential. Thanks again.
I went back to college a few years ago as a mature student. I tried to do a computer degree but only lasted a few weeks. I came top for all my first assignments but just couldn't sustain any interest.

I was diagnosed with cancer at 24 and after two years of treatment was told I was unlikely to recover and would be put onto palliative care.

I had a bone marrow transplant though and never relapsed. It took me two years to physically recover to the point I was no longer registered disabled but I kind of lost interest in life.

Trying to do the course just put so much stress on me I made myself ill again.

I'm thinking I'd love to give uni another shot and like yourself am interested in anthropology, or psychology. I feel I am too old to start again but I guess nobody is ever too old for anything.

Losing your mum is bound to cause you to lose interest in life. It just makes everything else seem unimportant and life unfair.

You will get over it in time, as sadly that is the nature of life, but don't beat yourself up about not coping well or not being motivated enough.

I can tell you right now, I would have quit the day she died and would have probably gone a completely self destructive cycle so you're doing absolutely amazing to still be hanging in there, you're a better man than me.

I hope you have a strong family around you with whom you can all pull together.

On the positive at least now after a year, these feelings arn't going to get any worse. Healing is a long and painful process but it is taking place slowly.